Bittersweet friends-O-mine.

I'm a stickler for friendship. I LOVE to keep a friendship as long as possible. Isn't that what friendship is all about. I strive to be the loyalest, and the most unconditional bud I can.

I love my friends because they ARE my family, they are my only support system. What is also amusing is that some of my friends parents are more parental than my family ever were.

My oldest friend is / was John Paragano, I met him in Chartwell, we were best friends in Chartwell. We kept in touch throughout the years, and visited each other frequently. He is a Laywer in N.J.:is VERRY Layweresque, and is married to NY Deejay Diane Prior on WKTU. John turned out to be a STAUNCHY REPUBLICAN, and started to cram his BUSH values down my throat. I don't like BUSH, and that's as political as I get! John and I don't speak anymore, but I do miss him. He will recognise soon, they all do! He IS one of my favorite guinnys!!! and a guinny he is!

Anthony Valentino
WOW!
Were do I begin?
I met Anthony in the 9th grade, he came in mid semester because he was mugged in the library of his prior school. We became friends instantaneously! In the 9th grade we both got 4 dollars a day for lunch, we only spent 1 on food which consisted of a bag of dipsy doodles corn chips, a pack of Yankee doodles cupcakes and a can of Coke! We'd save up til Friday and go to "King Karol Records" and buy import LP's and 12" of The B'52's, Blondie (OBSESSED), and Lene Lovich, Tom Robinson (I had heard he was gay so I had to hear). In the 10th grade he started to experiment with drugs (I did not). By the time Senior year came he was an addict, but we still were inseparable. He came over my house one day and I showed him my parents bottle of Valium (didn't every house have Valium in the 80's?) he took 1/2 the bottle...I let him!
We remained best friends through my college years, and during the introduction my new slew of friends. He was jealous of my new buds (Angie, Richie, Elke, Sandra)and did not want to meet them. He did, and now everyone were getting along fabulously. In the summer of 88 I went to London (WOW)and had a incredible time. When I came back, Anthony wanted me... I was already out, but I never suspected he was! So surprised I was, and very excited. I was going to date my best friend! The first time we "DID IT" was in his car, that the only was he could do it at that time (yes I know). So we parked at Cunningham Park in Queens and made out and did the oral thang... We were busted by the police!!! They just chased us away. We started to do it at my apt, he was very inexperienced or just a bad lover. He was really into black dudes and S&M (I was not)... We continued to date for like 2 years. He never officially came out, and became very confused, and decided to be straight! He started to fool around with my girlfriends, and I didn't like that! I am all for sharing friends, but I knew he just wanted to see what it was like to be with them. He dated Angie , but nothing really happened (HE WAS GAY). I introduced him to this chic Shelly Maple, she was from the UK, and she was a alpha female...EXCRUCIATINGLY INTENSE STRONG AND FIERCE. Anthony was a Clash(as in THE CLASH) wanna be confused closet queen, but sooo cute. He married Shelly (for her papers) and thought this could work. It didn't! So much crushing at that time, everyone was being crushed, and we were 21, and we all thought it was the end of the world. Anthony was using Heroin by 25. we still hung out but it was getting difficult. He still was in the closet, still lived at home, his family was crazed (who's isn't).I just could not deal anymore. Then I met Ed, and Anthony didn't like that. In fact Ed and Anthony HATED each other, and I was tied to the both of them. It just got messier and messier. Ed banned me from seeing Anthony, but I'd sneak a visit time to time. Long story short...
Ed and I broke up. I moved to Miami. Anthony turned into a Junkie. My sister and him were "using" while I was in FLA. Judy developed cancer and the "JUNK" didn't help. She died. Anthony used til 2002, and is supposedly clean.
We don't speak anymore. I feel that he progressed the cancer in Judy, and knowing what I went through with Judy all my life, that was pretty messed up!!! I am still furious about this situation.

Angelica
The cutest lil punk chick in NYC, and every dude "in the scene" wanted her, and she was my best girlfriend at the time. We did everything together, Angie and her sister Yzzy. CBGB's, SKA shows, Dance clubs, drunken nights at my Apt, tryppin @ the movies...and soo much more. I met Angie at "Punk rock corner" the corner of Roosevelt Ave & Main St in Flushing Queens. Richard, Elke, Sandra, Yzzy, and Ang. Richie had the car, but the tortured artist, and strugglin musician syndrome.. Too deep he was, wow... he listened to Jazz, and ridiculed me for not "being into" Jazz, I was, but was enjoying Siouxsie at the moment! Richard and Anthony became the best of friends. Good for them.
Back to Angene (as her mom called her) I have soooooo many stories about her but they were all good times, we always had a good time. Angie is married to Rob and has 2 delicious kids, Miles Diego and Gianna Paz. I love her and her family very much, and through thick and thin this sweet tough bitch has always been there for me! I'm sure I'll know her for the rest of my life.. I hope!
During our first scorching summer together (a goth's nightmare) Angie and I would go to the 42nd st Piers for summer concerts. Our first one together was "The Smiths" If you were a true fan you were there by 9 am (Gothic nightmare) and wait in the front of the line for the best standing room only spot. At that Smith's show I/we (Ang) met this girl.. Lisa.
Lisa... Sister Moon at that time. A big Gothic delight. At the next show a couple of weeks later "The Cure" performed, and I think.. that's when Lisa fell in love with me. she was at my beck and call, her and her Marilyn Punkroe sidekick Alyese. What a duo! They would stop traffic, all hair and makeup... ALL!!! Wow.. It was always fun being seen with them. I loved Lisa as a friend very much, but she wanted more.. I think she couldn't handle me being gay. She use to yell thing out at me and Anthony like "WHY WON"T YOU JUST FUCK ME?" I'd / we'd walk away.. What do you say to that? We remained great friends until she went off to college in Boston. She would write these long elaborate beautiful letters on how much we were meant to be together, at time I thought it might be true..Then I woke up! When she returned back to NY, there was something off. Like she always kept me close enough, but not too close, there was definetly something off, and it stayed that way. We remained friends throughout the years until she hired me to work at Blueman. I really don't know what happened but the first day I showed up to work I sensed something wrong.. Week goes by it gets stronger.. She just could not deal with me being there. I understand that. I acted like that before toward people, and it sucks! But you don't do that to your good friend. Lisa had/has control issues, she needs to be in control at ALL times. You can't! I was a mess when I was fired after 1 month. I was good, I did what I had to do and more, people liked me, but she didn't! We haven't spoke since Halloween 2004. I miss her very much, but yet I'm still upset with her. We do have to talk sometime in the future because she was and kind of is very special and dear to me. Fat bitch!

Still fearing that I might not be streetwise enough my parents thought it best that I go to a "Public School" in the 11 grade. So I did.. John Bowne HS Flushing. Just like that! I missed all my my buds back at Windsor. I did meet a real good friend in JBHS..
JOE B
Oh Joe
From a new wave prep in high school to a green Mohawk purple pant wearing big slice of heaven. Oh.. in Gym one day we were playing volleyball, and I twisted my ankle, and no one believed me so Joe volunteered to take to to the nurses office in a wheelchair. That was really cool of him... I do tell everyone that he broke my leg in HS. I did actually break 2 toes and wore a cast for like 2 months. Joe and I dated for like a month or two, it was cool, but i'm glad we remained good friends still to this day. Joe B was a cute boy. and was always at the gym, and had the body to pump. We always pumped in the faggiest clubs in NY.. Mars, RedZone, Tunnel, Limelight, Palladium, The Ritz.. We were there. Best of all Joe was a junior HS teacher Mr B!very inspirational, but he wanted to pursue his dream... SO HE DID .. Joe went to Cali to pursue acting, and it went good for a while. He came back home NYC and has been working in the House music scene for a looong time. I hope he pursues acting again because he's a character and everyone loves him and he's good at it! I love Ms thingamajig very mushhh!

During my stint as bagcheck at Tower I met the two gothic beauties Anne & Lori...what bithes these chicks were.. They were untouchable, they were too cool for school..
I broke that code of gothic behavior soon enuff! Anne & Lori unbeknownst ended up staying with Lisa and I during my last weeks in London. Lori and I bonded hard during an extension extraction on her head. Ann went on to become a bible slammer, and Lori and I have become closer and closer for the past 21 years. Her family has accepted me as a part of their clan, and the love that pours out is intoxicating. Lori has gone off to marry the firecracker that is Brian, and there is nothing better than a hang session with the Jacksons. Even though I haven't been able to get in a sentence for the past 2 decades, I love my Loriann (medieval queen of the shopping scene), and we BOTH are destined to go to hell... We're ok with that!

Then there's ED!
My first REAL boyfriend! Man I loved this bitch.. He was cute and skinny, and had good taste, he/we got it.. I endured about 3 years of extreme jealous behavior.. I was basiclly banned from seeing all my good friends except Lori. He used to claim that I beat him.. I NEVER DID.. I lunged at him twice cause he freggin drove me wild and out of control. He actually beat me, gave me a black eye once, and I had to go to a wedding the next day (remember that Lori..) I really loved Ed, but I think he really needed to "sow his oats", I had already. When we moved to Miami and broke up soon after. We remained friends on and off throughout the years, we still constanty annoyed each other. We recently reaquainted our friendship, but on 4th of july 2006 he left Chad and I stranded in a hooker/crack infested neiborhood and was mean. We haven't spoken since. I really do miss Ed and his hubby Dave, but not the puppetmaster ways. I think we like each other too much and we get stuff so well that it cancels things out..???
You already know the Forrest story..
and there has been so many more wonderful people I have met since.
YOU WILL hear about them.
And then there's CHAD..
You might hear about him!

Enjoy the pix
And lets enjoy each other, just not in that way..
Remember..
You annoy me just as much as I annoy YOU!
And thats why I love you's!

Loyality!
1. the state or quality of being loyal; faithfulness to commitments or obligations.
2. faithful adherence to a sovereign, government, leader, cause, etc.
3. an example or instance of faithfulness, adherence, or the like: a man with fierce loyalties.

Like Marie Osmond selling her dolls on QVC.