Aftermath

I want to be like the character Max Cady played by Robert Mitchum or Robert De Niro in the Movies "Cape Fear".

Someone (me) who inflicts a life of misery to someone (Mel). I am not a sadastic person, but for some reason I wanna get this wench...
HELLO
She cheated my family and I for over 12 million dollars...
HELLO!!!!!
Can you imagine thinking your gonna get a nice payout and nothing...
NADA / NIL / ZILCH!
I capped too many jars of hot depilitory wax, assembled so many depilitory heaters, got my face and legs waxed off during puberty for nothing...
Yes I'm bitter.
And it took me 5-6 years to get over the fact that I will never get a inheritance. It really wasn't the money thing, i'll just never know if my dad cared about me or if Mel swindled it all.

I want to see her suffer like I did, deep deep anguish, depression, loss of vigor and lust for life. I used to be soo happy, happy go lucky, skinnier, and so much more positive.
I feel like she (Mel) stole all that away from me, and it deeply effected my life, my work and my relationships.
I WAS A WRECK FOR SOO MANY YEARS.... (right people who knew/know me?)

I hope to bump into her again...
OMG!! I soo ready now..
I already made up so many scenarios... sooo many.. I sooo ready.

BUT

What good will that do...

You know that C*#t would not give me/us anything, anything meaning memorabilia.. Not a pic nor a bric-a-brak.
Not the countless hours of 16mm film of my childhood,the photoalbums, nor 1 piece of awesome vinyl that he meticulously collected since the 40's (all in mint condition). Mel still listened to Kenny G and Spyro Gyra cassettes. I miss that vinyl... I dream of that vinyl..

Yes I am still enraged, but I feel it subsiding. A couple of days is soo much better that 5-6 years.

I don't know what to do?

But
If I do see her again, I AM going off!
BTW... Don't worry, I will not do anything stupid, I love the way my life is headed..

You will all hear continuous storys of my life here on in...

Isn't that what blogs are for?

I do feel so much better when I do this, why didn't I do this years ago?
Thanks Forrest (oh you will hear about him) for the inspiration.
But most of all....
THANK YOU CHAD ALLEN BEER.
A.K.A. Chips / Chud / Chadillac / too many more to mention...
Thank you for always inspiring me (even though you may think that I'm not listening..I am)
Thank you for always being there for me.. During the worst you were there.. During the best you were there..
I love you soo much
Most of all thank you for crash..

Here we go.

My story / stories

you ready?